A New Man

In the first book of 1984, Winston discovers that he has rebellious feelings towards the Party. His initial reaction to these new found feelings is apprehensive and cautious as he does not know what to do with the new sensation he feels that is rebellion. His caution towards his ideas are seen when he writes "DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER, DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER" in his diary and then writes, "theyll shoot me i dont care theyll shoot me in the back of the neck i dont care down with big brother" (19). He writes this in a sense of panic and hysteria as he realizes the extremity of what he was thinking. This event sets the tone for his nervous approach to his ideas, however, this is changed by his relationship with Julia.

Winston's relationship with Julia started when she slipped him the "I love you" note. From then on their relationship became very sexual. This was something that the Party condemned. Winston used his relationship with Julia as a way to rebel against the party and show his hatred for it. This is seen when he says, "I hate purity, I hate goodness. I don't want any virtue to exist anywhere. I want everyone to be corrupt to the bones" (126). In this quote, the purity Winston is referring to is the standard set by the Party and being impure implies going against what the Party says. This quote displays Winston's involvement from a timid man with revolutionary ideas, to a highly opinionated man who finds joy in defying the party. Julia brings him a sense of confidence in himself and his ideas that allows him to become more radical.